DEMI LOVATO Holy Fvck | A return to her musical roots, 15 years later
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Demi Lovato Holy Fvck | What is her 8th album about?
Demi leaves rehab’ againWe waste our lives in pursuit of something unreal, showing something we are not and not scratching at the depths of people. And it is precisely this lack of ‘substance’ that Demi sings about in Substance, the second single from her eighth album. When is this shit gonna end? Sounds like the voice in my head I can’t believe I’m not dead
- For this track, Demi chooses a punk sound, with a fun song in whose video clip she appears with several of her friends, including Paris Hilton herself, as was the case in the video for Sorry Not Sorry.
- Featuring Royal and the Serpent, she screams that, from now on, she’s not going to be like everyone else wants her to be, so take it or leave it, something she’s certainly right about.
I’ll show you the light With all the lights off, with all the lights off I’ll bring you to life I’m a holy fuck, I’m a holy fuckIn 29 Demi goes straight to the point. This track refers to her relationship with actor Wilmer Valderrama, with whom she shared 6 years of her life. They met when Demi was only 17 and he was 29, and what better way to realise the murkiness of such a love than by turning 29 💔 By that age, Demi realised that she would never be able to date someone that young, unlike Wilmer, who has already had a few relationships with the same pattern behind him. The song has become a single and has gone viral on networks such as Tik Tok as it resonates in many women who have been involved in this kind of relationships.
Finally twenty-nine Funny, just like you were at the time Thought it was a teenage dream, just a fantasy But was it yours or was it mine? Seventeen, twenty-nineDemi only knew God for a minute and felt she didn’t fit in heaven… So begins Happy Ending, a grunge pop song in which she opens up and shows her doubts about whether she will be able to be happy and die having had a full life. This song was especially difficult for Demi to write, as she was going through a bad time that led to these cathartic lyrics.
Am I gonna die trying to find my happy ending? And will I ever know what it’s like To be fine without pretending that my Skin isn’t crawling, my demons aren’t calling And tearing me to shreds? Am I gonna die trying to find my happy ending?
After this heartbreaking track we move on to Heaven 😇, another sexually charged song in which Demi makes reference to the biblical verse 5:30 from the apostle Matthew. What does Demi bring us with this song? A true ode to female masturbation, Demi even has her own sex toy, the Demi Wand. Going to hell has never been so good and, without a doubt, it’s like going to heaven.
We travel to Los Angeles with City of Angels. Demi has been living in the city of stars for 15 years and now she wants to discover it from a different perspective. In the almost three minutes that the song lasts, she makes clear references to sexual exploration. Demi leaves little to the imagination 🔥 This is not the only statement of intent that can be extracted from this song, as Demi also makes a subtle reference to her gender fluidity, as she declared herself a non-binary person in May 2021.
You call me they but I’m still daddy’s girlCome make my day and rock my world byChristening the city of angels
What happens when you like someone? Well, you want to eat them up, and that’s precisely what Bones is about, a dark but fast-paced track that reflects those almost obsessive feelings that we’ve all had at some point. Demi wrote this song in the garden of her house with Dead Sara, with whom she shares vocals on one of the best tracks on Holy Fvck 🦴
Selfishly speaking, I want all of you to myself
And one day I’m gonna leave you needing nobody else
Don’t let the title make you think Wasted is about Demi’s addictions, because with this track we move into more romantic terrain. Age makes you realise when you’ve fallen in love – butterflies in your stomach, being on cloud nine? Demi defines it in other ways, and we love it.
I’m wasted (Wasted, wasted)
I’m faded (Faded, faded)
The highest high can’t hold a candle to
Getting wasted on you
We continue with the love and the happiness that Come Together produces. Have you ever felt that a person was for you just by meeting them? That’s exactly what this song is about, and being close to the precipice has never been so appetising. Although it is a little less explicit than her album mates, it also refers to sex 😏
Despite her youth, several of Demi’s friends have already passed away due to their addictions and other health problems. She sings to them in Dead Friends, an anthem that picks up pace as it goes along and is sure to bring a tear to your eye 😭 It was the first song she wrote on the album, just at a time when she had lost one of her closest friends and with whom she shared part of her path to sobriety.
I danced with the devil
I made it through hell and I don’t know why
How am I different?
I did and they didn’t and it doesn’t feel right
We take a step forward with Help Me, in which Demi, along with Dead Sara, claims that her life is hers and that she doesn’t give a damn about the opinions that others post on the Internet. Since the beginning of her career, fans and non-fans alike have always speculated about her problems and what’s best for Demi, and she wants to put an end to that with this great song.
Which side of us rules? The good side, or the bad side? This dichotomy is what Feed is about, a ballad in which Demi takes as a reference an indigenous proverb that talks about the two wolves inside us, and that fight between them to put happiness and positivity before negativity and jealousy… Which one wins? We decide, and as Demi says, she is the one who runs her own life 🐺
We end Holy Fvck with 4 ever 4 me, Demi’s most romantic and vulnerable track, inspired by Iris from Goo Goo Dolls. She describes how she has fallen completely in love, but with whom? 😍 The recipient of such a beautiful track is indie artist Jute$, who Demi fell in love with during the songwriting sessions for Substance, Happy Ending and City of Angels.
They say you know when you find the one
Just a look from you, I come undone
So here I go speaking honestly
I think this is forever for me
Will he be the definitive one? Let’s hope so, and that she gets all the best out of life, because it’s hard to find vocalists who put so much passion into their songs and what they do, showing themselves to be totally vulnerable. Are you ready to discover Holy Fvck for yourself? Without a doubt, this album is a listening experience, and Demi never disappoints us with her vocal ability and her harmonies within this rock and punk universe 🎸
The process of making this album has been the most fulfilling yet, and I’m grateful to my fans and collaborators for being on this journey with me. Never have I been more sure of myself and my music, and this record speaks that for itself. To my Lovatics who have been rocking out with me since the beginning and those who are just now coming along for the ride, thank you. This record is for you.